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| January 16, 2014 |
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| Top is from June 12, 2013. 308 pounds. Bottom is from January 16, 2014. 205 pounds. |
I have been playing with the same 5-7 pounds for the past month. I know why. I haven't been getting in the protein I should, and I haven't been working out like I should. Starting next week i am getting back in to the gym. I need to start losing again. I have thought about doing the 5 day pouch test, and I just might do it when we go grocery shopping on the 25th of this month.
I don't eat too bad. Breakfast can be half of a bacon and egg breakfast sandwich with a sugar free red bull with sugar free raspberry flavoring. Lunch is usually a grilled chicken breast, or left overs from the night before. Dinner can be anything from pot roast and veggies, or chicken stir fry, or tacos, or chicken chili, or chicken sausage, or hamburger patties with mac and cheese, or turkey roll ups. For snacks I eat maybe 1 ounce of Cheez Its, or 1 ounce of Pita Chips, or beef jerky, or a protein shake. I always make sure to eat the protein part of my dinner first. I am sure I can cut down on a lot of my carbs and I could jump start my weight loss again.
This is not an easy journey, but it has been well worth it. Surgery isn't for everyone, but if you have done all you can do to lose the weight and still can't get it off, then maybe it is for you. I am so thankful for all my family and friends, near and far, for the support they have given me.
One thing that does bother me is when people who are a year or more out tell me that I will eventually fall off the wagon and eat the things I shouldn't eat. I had a lady tell me at a support group on Tuesday that she is 4 years out and her weakness is Skittles, even though they make her really sick. Why in the world would you continue to eat things that make you sick? I can honestly say I have not purposely eaten anything that I knew was going to make me sick just because I wanted it so bad. I have eaten some things I didn't think would make me sick and they did end up making me sick, like too many carbs that turn in to sugar. I don't purposely eat sugar. I have found a lot of substitutes for the things that I used to eat that I can no longer eat. I have found a few sugar free candies that are good. I only have or or two a day, I don't go over board. A lot of people say the sugar free candies can have a laxative effect, but I don't eat enough of them to have that effect. I have so desparately wanted a donut since surgery, but I know even one bite has so much sugar in it that it would make me sick. So why would i eat it? I saw a girl on a support group online that ate two donuts and then complained about it making her sick. DUH!!!!!!!!!! It is going to make you sick because it is pure sugar. I know that only about 30% of bypass patients get dumping, by why chance it just to eat that one thing.
I spent about 9 months before surgery changing the way I eat and changing my thinking patterns. My husband and I were just talking the other night how my emotional eating has really gone down, maybe even has been deleted from my life. I used to reward myself with food as well, and now I find things to reward myself with that are not food. I have come to realize that it is ok to have bad days and not have to eat myself silly because of them. I have come to realize that I can get together with friends and family and it not revolve around food, or if it does, then I can limit what I eat and I don't have to eat myself silly. I have come to realize that I don't need a Venti Starbucks Coffee every two weeks when I get paid just because I made it through the two weeks of work. When I hit my 100 pounds lost I went indoor skydiving. I didn't reward my loss with food. When I hit my goal weight I am not going to celebrate with food, I have plans to go shark cage diving or real sky diving. I am really proud of myself for coming so far.
