So today is Sunday, June 30, 2013. I came home yesterday from the hospital. I was in a lot of pain yesterday. I was having to switch back and forth between the two pain medicines they gave me. Last night I was able to take my pain medicine around 12:00 and then not again until this morning at 5 am.
It has been so hot here lately, so getting out and walking is hard. I might have my husband or a friend take me to the mall and walk with me. The heat has also made me not really that hungry. The liquids seem to be just fine for me right now.
While I was in the hospital, my bowels started to wake up and gurgle. I didn't have a bowel movement until today. Here is one piece of advice that you should listen to. If you feel like you need to fart, go to the bathroom and do it. You may actually have diarrhea and it feels like a fart.
My postop appointment is this coming Wednesday. I think at that point I can move on to pureed foods. The doctor told me that the papers they gave us are just guidelines, not set in stone rules. He said that if I feel ready to progress to a new stage then I can certainly try. He said if it doesn't work then to go back to the stage I was on and wait another few days.
I am looking forward to the pureed foods. I have some peaches and pears pureed that I want to put in a protein shake. I also have my mom's chicken curry pureed that I want to eat.
My husband's surgery is only 10 days away. I hope all goes well for him.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Discharged Home
The photos above show the 5 cuts they made to be able to do the surgery. The second photo is supposed to show how swollen my belly is, but it doesn't look too swollen.
While in the hospital I only gained 4 pounds. I went in weighing 292 and came out weighing 296. That's not too bad!
I am glad to be home. The nurses were so kind and gentle. I really did enjoy having them around. My friend Kendra got to go home on Friday because she did so well.
I hear people say they have a hard time getting the liquids in. I don't see how that is possible because I am so very thirsty all the time and have drank too much at once a few times and had to wait for the liquid to pass and the pressure feeling to go away.
Right now I am drinking half apple juice half water. They gave me some of that in the hospital and i was hooked. It tastes a little sweeter than water.
So far so good. No regrets. Although it still doesn't see real sometimes. I'm excited for my husband to have his. Then we will both be on the loser's bench.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Day of Surgery
Well it's the morning of surgery. It's 4:15 am and we are almost ready to leave the house. Have to check in at 5:00 am. This morning I weighed in at 296. That's a total loss of 19 pounds since September! Yay Me.
I will write more once I am out of surgery and able to function.
Love, Hugs, and Kisses to you all!
I will write more once I am out of surgery and able to function.
Love, Hugs, and Kisses to you all!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Day before my Rebirthday
Today is Wednesday, June 26, 2013. I report to St Francis Hospital in Federal Way on Thursday, June 27, 2013 at 5am. Today I have just been cleaning the house and relaxing. I went and had my nails done. Last night I went and had a massage.
I am so ready for this. They just called to remind me of my time to check in tomorrow. I will take weekly photos tonight after my shower.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Zucchini Recipes
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| Zucchini Pizza Bites Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes Servings: 1 • Serving Size: 4 pieces • Old Points: 2 pts • Points+: 3 pts Calories: 124.8 • Fat: 5.7 g • Protein: 8.2 g • Carb: 10.4 g • Fiber: 3.0 g Ingredients:
Directions: Cut zucchini about 1/4 inch thick. Spray both side lightly with oil and season with salt and pepper. Broil or grill for about 2 minute on each side. Top with sauce and cheese and broil for an additional minute or two. (Careful not to burn cheese) |
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Zucchini Lasagna
Skinnytaste.com Servings: 8 • Serving Size: 1/8 • Old Points: 8 pts • Points+: 9 pts Calories: 345 • Fat: 17 g • Carbs: 16 g • Fiber: 2 g • Protein: 36 g • Sugar: 8 g Sodium: 801 (without salt) Ingredients:
Directions: In a medium sauce pan, brown meat and season with salt. When cooked drain in colander to remove any fat. Add olive oil to the pan and saute garlic and onions about 2 minutes. Return the meat to the pan, add tomatoes, basil, salt and pepper. Simmer on low for at least 30-40minutes, covered. Do not add extra water, the sauce should be thick.
Meanwhile, slice zucchini into 1/8" thick slices, add lightly
salt and set aside or 10 minutes. Zucchini has a lot of water when
cooked, salting it takes out a lot of moisture. After 10 minutes, blot
excess moisture with a paper towel.
On a gas grill or grill pan, grill zucchini on each side, until cooked, about 1-2 minutes per side. Place on paper towels to soak any excess moisture. Preheat oven to 350°. In a medium bowl mix ricotta cheese, parmesan cheese and egg. Stir well. In a 9x12 casserole spread some sauce on the bottom and layer the zucchini to cover. Then place some of the ricotta cheese mixture, then top with the mozzarella cheese and repeat the process until all your ingredients are used up. Top with sauce and mozzarella and cover with foil.
Bake 45 minutes covered at 375°, then uncovered 15 minutes. Let stand
about 5 - 10 minutes before serving.
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| Turkey Stuffed Zucchini Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes Servings: 4 • Serving Size: 2 halves • Old Points: 4 pts • Points+: 5 pts Calories: 214.8 • Fat: 4.6 g • Protein: 31.6 g • Carb:11.0 g • Fiber: 2.9 g Ingredients:
Directions: Preheat oven to 400°. Cut zucchini in half lengthwise and using a spoon or melon baller, scoop out flesh, leaving 1/4" thick. Arrange in a baking dish. Chop the scooped out flesh of the zucchini in small pieces. In a large saute pan, melt butter and add onion, shallot and garlic. Cook on a medium-low flame for about 2-3 minutes, until onions are translucent. Add chopped zucchini and season with a pinch of salt, cook about 2-3 minutes. Add wine and cook until it reduces. Add ground turkey and season with salt and pepper, cooking until turkey is white, breaking up in smaller pieces. Add paprika, rosemary, garlic powder, marjoram and basil. Mix well and cook another minute. Place turkey meat in a large mixing bowl and set aside to cool. When cooled, add parmesan cheese and egg white, mix well. Using a spoon, fill hollowed zucchinis with stuffing, pressing firmly and top with bread crumbs. Place chicken broth in bottom of the baking dish and cover tightly with foil. Bake 35 minutes. |
Some Pureed Recipes
High Protein Pumpkin Pudding
1 package (1.4 oz) Butterscotch Jell-O® Sugar Free Instant Pudding
1 cup skim milk
2 scoops protein supplement
½ c. canned pumpkin
½ tsp. pumpkin pie spice
¼ tsp. cinnamon
1/8 tsp. nutmeg
1/8 teaspoon ginger
Mix Beneprotein® powder into skim milk. Using a fork, blend the dry pudding mix and spices in a bowl. Pour in the Beneprotein®/milk mixture. Add ½ cup canned pumpkin. Stir/beat until thoroughly mixed (a wire whisk or mixer works best). Pour into small container and chill in the fridge.
Makes 4 (1/2 cup) servings, per serving: Calories: 80, Fat: 0g, Carbohydrates: 13.5g, Fiber: 2g, Protein: 6.5g
Golden Butternut Squash Soup
1 sweet onion, thinly sliced
1 small butternut squash, peeled and chopped into ½ inch cubes (about 4 cups cubed squash)
½ teaspoon kosher salt
2 cups chicken broth
1 teaspoon minced fresh sage (or ½ teaspoon dried rubbed sage)
½ teaspoon minced rosemary (or ¼ teaspoon dried)
1 teaspoon Splenda®
4 scoops protein powder
Spray a largesauce pan with non-stick spray. Add onion, butternut squash, and salt, cooking until onion is golden and squash is tender, about 15 minutes. Stir in chicken broth, scraping the bottom of the pan to pick up the flavor on the bottom of the skillet. Simmer soup for 10 minutes to let the squash absorb the liquid. Remove squash mixture and place in a blender, blending until pureed (remember to remove top cork out of blender to let steam escape). Add squash puree back to the skillet. Stir in sage, rosemary, Splenda®,protein, and salt and pepper to taste. Serve hot!
Makes 8 servings. Per ½ cup serving: Calories: 120, Fat: 0.5g, Carbohydrates: 16g, Fiber: 3g, Protein: 13.5g
Pumpkin Ricotta Mousse
Cooking time ~ 8 minutes
Portions ~ 4
suitable for home freezing.
Ingredient
~ 2 large pears
~ 5 Tablespoons of water
method
~ Peel, core and cut pears into quarters. Place the in a saucepan with the water and cover. Cook them on a medium heat for 8 minutes or until very tender.
~ Pour away excess water
~ Mash slightly (pressing only once or twice) with a fork then pour away excess juices.
~ Purée pears by continuing to mask until smooth or use a food blender or processor.
~ freeze individual portions. Ice cube trays are a perfect way to freeze baby foods. When needed take desired amount of cubes and leave at room temperature for 2 hours or leave in the fridge overnight. If desired, heat in a pan, microwave or in a bowl floating on hot water.
RICOTTA PEPPERONI SUPRISE:
1/4 c. Ricotta Cheese
1-2 slices pepperoni chopped fine
1-2 tbs Mozzarella or Cheddar Cheese
2 tbs Spaighetti Sauce such as Paul Newman's or Classico.
Microwave until warm and cheese is melted. YUM YUM!
1 package (1.4 oz) Butterscotch Jell-O® Sugar Free Instant Pudding
1 cup skim milk
2 scoops protein supplement
½ c. canned pumpkin
½ tsp. pumpkin pie spice
¼ tsp. cinnamon
1/8 tsp. nutmeg
1/8 teaspoon ginger
Mix Beneprotein® powder into skim milk. Using a fork, blend the dry pudding mix and spices in a bowl. Pour in the Beneprotein®/milk mixture. Add ½ cup canned pumpkin. Stir/beat until thoroughly mixed (a wire whisk or mixer works best). Pour into small container and chill in the fridge.
Makes 4 (1/2 cup) servings, per serving: Calories: 80, Fat: 0g, Carbohydrates: 13.5g, Fiber: 2g, Protein: 6.5g
Golden Butternut Squash Soup
1 sweet onion, thinly sliced
1 small butternut squash, peeled and chopped into ½ inch cubes (about 4 cups cubed squash)
½ teaspoon kosher salt
2 cups chicken broth
1 teaspoon minced fresh sage (or ½ teaspoon dried rubbed sage)
½ teaspoon minced rosemary (or ¼ teaspoon dried)
1 teaspoon Splenda®
4 scoops protein powder
Spray a largesauce pan with non-stick spray. Add onion, butternut squash, and salt, cooking until onion is golden and squash is tender, about 15 minutes. Stir in chicken broth, scraping the bottom of the pan to pick up the flavor on the bottom of the skillet. Simmer soup for 10 minutes to let the squash absorb the liquid. Remove squash mixture and place in a blender, blending until pureed (remember to remove top cork out of blender to let steam escape). Add squash puree back to the skillet. Stir in sage, rosemary, Splenda®,protein, and salt and pepper to taste. Serve hot!
Makes 8 servings. Per ½ cup serving: Calories: 120, Fat: 0.5g, Carbohydrates: 16g, Fiber: 3g, Protein: 13.5g
Pumpkin Ricotta Mousse
1 cup low-fat ricotta cheese
1 cup pumpkin puree (such as Libby’s)
2 Tablespoons sugar-free, fat-free white chocolate instant pudding mix
2 Tablespoons Splenda
½ teaspoon Chinese Five Spice
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1 1/3 cup frozen sugar-free whipped topping, thawed
1 cup pumpkin puree (such as Libby’s)
2 Tablespoons sugar-free, fat-free white chocolate instant pudding mix
2 Tablespoons Splenda
½ teaspoon Chinese Five Spice
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1 1/3 cup frozen sugar-free whipped topping, thawed
Directions: In a food processor or blender, blend ricotta
and pumpkin until smooth. Add pudding mix, Splenda, Chinese Five Spice,
cinnamon, and 1/3 cup whipped topping. Process until well-blended and smooth.
Remove from food processor, pour into medium bowl and fold in the final cup of
whipped topping.
Refrigerate until ready to serve. Serve in parfait
glasses. Top with a dollop of whipped topping and a sprinkle of toasted almonds
and cinnamon, if desired. Tastes like fall!
Nutrition Information: Number of servings: 6-8, Portion
size: ½ cup:Calories:
50.7, Protein: 3.5 grams, Carbohydrates: 5.8 grams, Fat: 1.5 grams. Add a
1-2 scoops of Beneprotein or another unflavored protein powder for an
additional boost of protein.
Pureed Pears
Prep time ~ 2 minutesCooking time ~ 8 minutes
Portions ~ 4
suitable for home freezing.
Ingredient
~ 2 large pears
~ 5 Tablespoons of water
method
~ Peel, core and cut pears into quarters. Place the in a saucepan with the water and cover. Cook them on a medium heat for 8 minutes or until very tender.
~ Pour away excess water
~ Mash slightly (pressing only once or twice) with a fork then pour away excess juices.
~ Purée pears by continuing to mask until smooth or use a food blender or processor.
~ freeze individual portions. Ice cube trays are a perfect way to freeze baby foods. When needed take desired amount of cubes and leave at room temperature for 2 hours or leave in the fridge overnight. If desired, heat in a pan, microwave or in a bowl floating on hot water.
RICOTTA PEPPERONI SUPRISE:
1/4 c. Ricotta Cheese
1-2 slices pepperoni chopped fine
1-2 tbs Mozzarella or Cheddar Cheese
2 tbs Spaighetti Sauce such as Paul Newman's or Classico.
Microwave until warm and cheese is melted. YUM YUM!
Last Weekend Before The New Life
So this is the last weekend before my new life. I am going to try to stay busy so I don't have time to think about wanting to eat or think about what is coming up next week.
Today, Saturday, I am going to the zoo with a friend and her son. I am pretty excited about it. It's supposed to be a nice day weather wise and I am going to bring Charlie's camera so I can take some photos. It's been a few years since I have been to the zoo.
Tomorrow, Sunday, I am going to visit my mom. She has a friend staying with her that has a cute French Bulldog. I am taking Penny so she can meet the dog. I'm sure Penny is just excited to see Grandma! She loves going to see Grandma. And I am pretty sure Grandma LOVES to see Penny.
After this weekend only 3 days left until the big day.
Today, Saturday, I am going to the zoo with a friend and her son. I am pretty excited about it. It's supposed to be a nice day weather wise and I am going to bring Charlie's camera so I can take some photos. It's been a few years since I have been to the zoo.
Tomorrow, Sunday, I am going to visit my mom. She has a friend staying with her that has a cute French Bulldog. I am taking Penny so she can meet the dog. I'm sure Penny is just excited to see Grandma! She loves going to see Grandma. And I am pretty sure Grandma LOVES to see Penny.
After this weekend only 3 days left until the big day.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Weekly Photos
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| October 23, 2013 |
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| September 19, 2013 |
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| September 7, 2013 |
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| Comparison of June 20 to September 7 |
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| Comparison of June 12, 2013 to August 29, 2013--9 weeks out! |
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| June 12, 2013 308lbs |
7 Days to My Rebirthday!
When I went to see my surgeon I was 306lbs. On June 12th I was 308lbs. Today, June 20th, I am 298lbs. I have been on this liquid diet for 7 days now and I have lost 10lbs. I think that is pretty good. I can't say that it has gotten any easier to have only liquids, but while at work it is a lot easier than it is on the weekend.
7 days from today, at this time, I will be going in to surgery. That's 7 days to my rebirthday. Definition of rebirthday: the day of birth of a person other than the day they were birthed from their mother, a day in which their life starts over.
I feel I am ready for this. I know what is ahead of me and I am ready to face it. Losing this 10lbs has felt amazing. I keep thinking ahead of all the weight I will lose and how great I will look. How amazing I will feel. I am really excited.
I sit here drinking my protein shake for the day and think this isn't too bad! I had a few stalks of asparagus and some zucchini and about 1 ounce of chicken last night for dinner. That was my light meal. I put it into a zip and steam bag and put in the microwave for 2 minutes and it was done. It was so yummy!
Today is my phone call from the prescreen department at the hospital. They are just going to go over my medications, medical history and tell me the do's and don'ts for before surgery. This is it, the last thing before surgery.
I am hoping that they will give me something to calm me when I get to the hospital.
Well everything is on track all systems go! I am so ready for this. Here we go!
7 days from today, at this time, I will be going in to surgery. That's 7 days to my rebirthday. Definition of rebirthday: the day of birth of a person other than the day they were birthed from their mother, a day in which their life starts over.
I feel I am ready for this. I know what is ahead of me and I am ready to face it. Losing this 10lbs has felt amazing. I keep thinking ahead of all the weight I will lose and how great I will look. How amazing I will feel. I am really excited.
I sit here drinking my protein shake for the day and think this isn't too bad! I had a few stalks of asparagus and some zucchini and about 1 ounce of chicken last night for dinner. That was my light meal. I put it into a zip and steam bag and put in the microwave for 2 minutes and it was done. It was so yummy!
Today is my phone call from the prescreen department at the hospital. They are just going to go over my medications, medical history and tell me the do's and don'ts for before surgery. This is it, the last thing before surgery.
I am hoping that they will give me something to calm me when I get to the hospital.
Well everything is on track all systems go! I am so ready for this. Here we go!
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Hard Times
It's interesting having my husband go through this with me. I have mixed emotions about it. Usually, before this 2 week liquid diet, if I wanted something and he didn't I wouldn't get it. For instance if I wanted to go out to eat somewhere and he didn't, then we wouldn't go out to eat. Well now that I am on this liquid diet I have really wanted to splurge, but I know I can't. Today I went through the Starbucks drive through. I ordered a Passion Tea Lemonade with Splenda. The Lemonade has sugar in it, but not the other part. He was upset at me that I went and splurged like that. So instead of drinking the drink, when we went in the pet store I gave it to another customer there in the store. While yes I did splurge, I at least didn't end up drinking it. So I feel like I had a small victory on my part.
It started an upset with me. The way he said things made me feel like I was a failure because I decided to splurge on something. He tried to help me understand that it was the reason I was splurging that was bad. He was trying to help me understand that I need to not revolve my decisions around food. It certainly is very hard going from my life revolving around food to all of a sudden I have to change that thinking and now life can't revolve around food. But from now on it will always revolve around food, just in a different way. Before it used to be when I was happy, sad, mad or just blah I would eat. I always found a reason to eat. Now, my life revolves around food in that I have to watch what I eat and the amount I eat.
No matter how much you think you can get away from the food, it is always there. When my husband went to the surgeon's office the other day for his last appointment before surgery, the surgeon told him that he would be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks but that if he decided to have a small meal then that would be ok. When my husband told me this I was shocked. I had been under the assumption it was only liquids, sugar free at that, for the 2 weeks. I started thinking of all the things I would be able to eat for a small meal if I wanted to. But then I realized that eating a small meal would mean failure on my part.
I am so afraid of failing. I am so afraid that what I am doing isn't going to work for me because of all the strong emotions I have. I almost feel like I need to see my counselor again. I stopped seeing her about a year ago because I was feeling better. Now with this surgery coming up a lot of emotions are being brought to the surface. How am I supposed to go from eating normally to all of a sudden having to change the way I think and eat?
For me the weekends are the hardest. When I am at work during the week I don't really have a problem with only having liquids. For a long time I have been having shakes for breakfast and lunch and drinking about 75oz of water a day. It's on the weekends when I have nothing to occupy my time that are hard.
Well I only have a week and a half to go. Only one more weekend to endure. I am certainly looking forward to my massage, manicure and pedicure 2 days before my surgery!!
It started an upset with me. The way he said things made me feel like I was a failure because I decided to splurge on something. He tried to help me understand that it was the reason I was splurging that was bad. He was trying to help me understand that I need to not revolve my decisions around food. It certainly is very hard going from my life revolving around food to all of a sudden I have to change that thinking and now life can't revolve around food. But from now on it will always revolve around food, just in a different way. Before it used to be when I was happy, sad, mad or just blah I would eat. I always found a reason to eat. Now, my life revolves around food in that I have to watch what I eat and the amount I eat.
No matter how much you think you can get away from the food, it is always there. When my husband went to the surgeon's office the other day for his last appointment before surgery, the surgeon told him that he would be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks but that if he decided to have a small meal then that would be ok. When my husband told me this I was shocked. I had been under the assumption it was only liquids, sugar free at that, for the 2 weeks. I started thinking of all the things I would be able to eat for a small meal if I wanted to. But then I realized that eating a small meal would mean failure on my part.
I am so afraid of failing. I am so afraid that what I am doing isn't going to work for me because of all the strong emotions I have. I almost feel like I need to see my counselor again. I stopped seeing her about a year ago because I was feeling better. Now with this surgery coming up a lot of emotions are being brought to the surface. How am I supposed to go from eating normally to all of a sudden having to change the way I think and eat?
For me the weekends are the hardest. When I am at work during the week I don't really have a problem with only having liquids. For a long time I have been having shakes for breakfast and lunch and drinking about 75oz of water a day. It's on the weekends when I have nothing to occupy my time that are hard.
Well I only have a week and a half to go. Only one more weekend to endure. I am certainly looking forward to my massage, manicure and pedicure 2 days before my surgery!!
Saturday, June 15, 2013
3 Days Down, 12 Wake Ups To Go
Well I am almost done with day 3 of the liquid diet. The thoughts and emotions are a lot harder to deal with than I thought they would be. I am having to face the fact that a lot of things in my life revolved around food.
I would get a Starbucks drink and pastry before going grocery shopping. On the weekends I would go out to eat with my husband. If we didn't want to make dinner we would just go out and get something to eat. We have a few places we like to eat that have some sentimental value to me.
So today when I went grocery shopping I went and got some Miso Soup before I went to the grocery store. It was a liquid, it was an act of buying something before grocery shopping, and it helped keep something in my stomach while grocery shopping.
I don't really think I am hungry, more that I am used to the act of eating and now that I am not really eating I need to find something else to do.
I have had a few weird cravings in the past 3 days. Some of them include squash, zucchini, eggplant, portabella mushrooms, tri tip, corn on the cob, a huge bacon cheeseburger, and a few other things I can't quite remember right now.
These are three things that I have been relying upon the past few days and will continue to rely upon until the surgery.
I also haven't been feeling well lately and I have really wanted some comfort food. McDonald's used to be my comfort food. When I went to the ER the other day all I wanted when I left was some McDonald's, but instead I went home and had a protein shake.
I have a few worries about the surgery. One is the IV they have to place. I have very hard veins to stick. Even if I am hydrated from the day before, I know they are going to have to stick me a few times. I also always get bruises from when they stick me. Another fear is the pain afterwards. I don't handle pain very well, and I have had abdominal surgery before when I had my appendix taken out. These two fears are very minimal though, compared to other fears that someone could have.
I would get a Starbucks drink and pastry before going grocery shopping. On the weekends I would go out to eat with my husband. If we didn't want to make dinner we would just go out and get something to eat. We have a few places we like to eat that have some sentimental value to me.
So today when I went grocery shopping I went and got some Miso Soup before I went to the grocery store. It was a liquid, it was an act of buying something before grocery shopping, and it helped keep something in my stomach while grocery shopping.
I don't really think I am hungry, more that I am used to the act of eating and now that I am not really eating I need to find something else to do.
I have had a few weird cravings in the past 3 days. Some of them include squash, zucchini, eggplant, portabella mushrooms, tri tip, corn on the cob, a huge bacon cheeseburger, and a few other things I can't quite remember right now.
I also haven't been feeling well lately and I have really wanted some comfort food. McDonald's used to be my comfort food. When I went to the ER the other day all I wanted when I left was some McDonald's, but instead I went home and had a protein shake.
I have a few worries about the surgery. One is the IV they have to place. I have very hard veins to stick. Even if I am hydrated from the day before, I know they are going to have to stick me a few times. I also always get bruises from when they stick me. Another fear is the pain afterwards. I don't handle pain very well, and I have had abdominal surgery before when I had my appendix taken out. These two fears are very minimal though, compared to other fears that someone could have.
Thursday, June 13, 2013
First Day Down
So today was the first day of my 2 week liquid diet. I am feeling a lot of different emotions and dealing with a lot of different thoughts.
The head hunger has been semi-annoying today. I keep thinking I am starving but I know I am not. I have consumed my daily water amount, 3 protein shakes, some broth and a serving of sugar free jello. Oh how I would love to eat a giant bacon cheeseburger with a big helping of fries. That is what sounds the best to me right now.
When I start to feel the hunger I wonder if what I am doing is the right thing. I wonder what would happen if I just didn't go through with surgery and kept eating the way I do and stay a fat girl all my life. So what if I can't do a lot of things, at least I could eat what I want. Then I start to think about how this is the right decision for me and that it's just the head hunger trying to break me down. I want to be healthy and be able to do things that I can't do now. I will be able to eat normal food again, just not right now.
No one ever said this journey would be easy. It most certainly is the hardest thing I will ever go through. I know that as the days go on this liquid diet will be easier to deal. The funny thing is that before today I was usually drinking a protein shake for breakfast and lunch and eating a sensible dinner, or going out to get something to eat. I think it's the ritual of going out and getting something to eat that is hard to get rid of. It was time for my husband and I to spend together. We just need to spend time together not around food now.
I thought I was prepared for this but I am beginning to think no one can ever be prepared for it until it happens. I mean I know what is going to happen and what I need to do, but emotionally you can't deal with the way you feel until you feel it!
The head hunger has been semi-annoying today. I keep thinking I am starving but I know I am not. I have consumed my daily water amount, 3 protein shakes, some broth and a serving of sugar free jello. Oh how I would love to eat a giant bacon cheeseburger with a big helping of fries. That is what sounds the best to me right now.
When I start to feel the hunger I wonder if what I am doing is the right thing. I wonder what would happen if I just didn't go through with surgery and kept eating the way I do and stay a fat girl all my life. So what if I can't do a lot of things, at least I could eat what I want. Then I start to think about how this is the right decision for me and that it's just the head hunger trying to break me down. I want to be healthy and be able to do things that I can't do now. I will be able to eat normal food again, just not right now.
No one ever said this journey would be easy. It most certainly is the hardest thing I will ever go through. I know that as the days go on this liquid diet will be easier to deal. The funny thing is that before today I was usually drinking a protein shake for breakfast and lunch and eating a sensible dinner, or going out to get something to eat. I think it's the ritual of going out and getting something to eat that is hard to get rid of. It was time for my husband and I to spend together. We just need to spend time together not around food now.
I thought I was prepared for this but I am beginning to think no one can ever be prepared for it until it happens. I mean I know what is going to happen and what I need to do, but emotionally you can't deal with the way you feel until you feel it!
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
And so it begins....
Tomorrow I start my 2 week liquid diet. I am totally ready. I have sugar free Popsicles, sugar free jello, crystal light, broths, and of course my protein shakes. I would have to say i am the most excited about the protein shakes. The reason I am so excited: TORANI SUGAR FREE FLAVOR SYRUPS!
The pumpkin pie, peanut butter and almond roca are three of our favorite flavors! We have been adding fat free frozen yogurt, protein powder and either milk for my husband or soy milk for me. They are simply amazing!
I have my binge eating over with. I have eaten the few things I know I won't be able to have after surgery. I am so ready for this. These next two weeks are going to be hard but I know I can get through it.
Tonight we had Indian Tacos with my mom. They were so good! My friend Nicole gave me a little mini cake to have as my last dessert. I am excited for that. When we got home from my mom's house tonight I saw the beginnings of a rainbow. The rainbow gave me hope for what will be at the end of my rainbow!
The pumpkin pie, peanut butter and almond roca are three of our favorite flavors! We have been adding fat free frozen yogurt, protein powder and either milk for my husband or soy milk for me. They are simply amazing!
I have my binge eating over with. I have eaten the few things I know I won't be able to have after surgery. I am so ready for this. These next two weeks are going to be hard but I know I can get through it.
Tonight we had Indian Tacos with my mom. They were so good! My friend Nicole gave me a little mini cake to have as my last dessert. I am excited for that. When we got home from my mom's house tonight I saw the beginnings of a rainbow. The rainbow gave me hope for what will be at the end of my rainbow!
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Helpful Websites
These are some of the websites I have found helpful. I also belong to a few groups on Facebook that have been a great support.
The World According to Egg Face
Bariatric Foodie
Bariatric Advantage
Obesity Help
Living After WLS
Here are some facebook groups I have found that I enjoy:
Gastric ByPass Surgery Stories
Gastric Bypass Groupies
Weight Loss Surgery Support Group
WLS Yard Sale
Curvy Closet
The World According to Egg Face
Bariatric Foodie
Bariatric Advantage
Obesity Help
Living After WLS
Here are some facebook groups I have found that I enjoy:
Gastric ByPass Surgery Stories
Gastric Bypass Groupies
Weight Loss Surgery Support Group
WLS Yard Sale
Curvy Closet
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